I have suffered through another migraine this month. It's no fun. No fun at all I tell you. I've cut out caffeine this past month to see if that was the culprit. Well I can say that my migraine was different this time around, it wasn't a heavy, boulder on my head, pressure on all sides, I wanna kill myself migraine. This time it was what they call a cluster migraine. It's only on one side and it feels like it's the size of a golf ball and it is shooting, piercing pain. Often times it takes a couple doses of meds to get rid of it. And believe you me I don't like taking meds so I tried everything to get rid of it. I tried a couple of weird yoga poses, upside down, standing on my head poses...didn't work but it did get my husbands attention! Ha! I tried lying in bed, with silence and no lights on and that did not work. I tried sleeping, that didn't work. I tried taking a cold shower, I was freezing and yet that did not work. So after I was freezing I turned the water to warm and realized that that helped a little so I stood under the very hot water for a while. After that I used a heating pad to try to get the same effect, it helped some but it did not take away the pain. So I finally caved and took some meds, still the next day (today) I have a migraine and that meant med #2. Well it's finally gone, yay! No more pain! But I tell you I have to wonder if this migraine is a thorn in my flesh to keep me from being proud. Like Paul talks about in 2 Corinthians 12:7-10. All the while having the pain I pray to God, I spend more time with Him then if I am well. I look forward to Heaven, I do, no more suffering and no more pain. But if getting a migraine keeps me closer to the Lord then I will take the suffering. And I believe this computer is causing me more pain so I better get off now. Sorry to end it so awkwardly. Thanks for prayers my way.
I just had a funny thought. Well let me back up a little bit more. I was bored and reading through random blogs, no one I knew just looking at blog after blog. One thing I noticed is that there are a lot of blogs out there with moms taking pictures of their babies, toddlers and preschoolers. I think I looked at around 25 blogs and that's what the majority of them were, some newlyweds but mostly blogs about children. I thought it kind of funny how you rarely see a blog about teenagers. Actually I did not see one blog where they had pictures of their teens. I suppose that's natural cause they're not around much when they are teens, but why do you suppose the moms aren't following around the teens with a camera like they are their babies? LOL I know...I need to go to bed and be off the Internet for the day. But just a funny thought to ponder.
Hi to my two readers, lol! I have a confession and I am shameful and embarrassed about it. The thing about confessions is that it helps to make you accountable as well as to receive prayers from those that care about you. Whenever I hear something that is about to occur I always assume the worst about people. If we meet our family for dinner and they've picked the place (which is 99.9% of the time) I automatically assume I am not loved enough to be able to pick. Or if there is a need in my ministry and my name is not mentioned I assume it's because they don't like me or I am not good enough. Or if my hubby mentions something about our kids or our home I automatically assume it's because he's got a problem with it and he's the bad guy. It's like I think everyone is always out to get me, to hurt me, to spite me, to use me. I hate to think that I'm one of those people that always sees things half empty rather than half full but I do believe that is true. I think this has a lot to do with pride. It should always be about me right?! Wrong! It's never about me, it's about Christ. But I'm not really writing here to be preachy I just need prayers and accountability in this area. Thanks so much from your sister in Christ.
I just found a new way to eat peanut butter! I grew up on peanut butter (my siblings can testify to this!). We ate peanut butter and jelly sandwiches every day practically. And when we were broke I would eat peanut butter in more ways than you can imagine! I would put it on a sandwich with pickles or with powdered sugar, often I ate it on apples (granny smith are the best), I would eat it with crackers and the peanut butter would seep through the holes if you didn't eat it fast enough. Oh and of course peanut butter on bananas but when I realized that eating peanut butter with ice cream will cause you to gain weight it made me sad because I really liked that combo. But whenever I can't find something to eat in the kitchen I always go back to the peanut butter, just like today; nothing to eat and I don't even have bread but I realized I could put peanut butter on a granola bar. And it was really very yummy, and satisfying. But most of all eating peanut butter reminds me of my humble beginnings and it always reminds me of all the Lord has done for me since then. Is there something in your life that tends to remind you of Jesus every time you are around it (or a person)? I think that's why I always tend to have peanut butter around. It's always good to be reminded of where you come from so you don't get too cocky about where you are.
Today I woke up feeling blue, depressed, down and for no apparent reason! So I thought that I'd post my thanks for everything I can think of. To praise Him and thank Him always changes your heart. Psalm 9:1 "I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds." Here's all that I'm thankful for:
My Lord and Savior My home My hubby ...family, church family, Recovery at the Village, chai tea lattes, my cats Arty and Leo, my soft/firm bed, A/C, the birds that I hear every morning and the squirrels running around all day, the turtle that makes it across the road without being run over, freedom to worship and read the Bible, that Jesus made Himself known to me at the tender age of 7, backyard bbq's, Texas heat, blueberries, the wii, soups, sunsets, the beautiful view of the trees outside most every window in my house, the Bible, the gym, leisure time, good health, fire and police departments, a flushing toilet, Mr. Dash (my car!), knockout roses that don't require a bit of maintenance, make up, grocery stores, the internet......
Well I could go on but please don't take my list as a form of boasting, I really am thankful for these these and the point was to change my heart. Well and honestly searching the Scriptures online for a verse to post in here changed my heart and adding the things I'm thankful probably helped too. God is so good! Please share with me the things you're thankful for. I don't mind comments, as a matter of fact I love comments and I wish some of you weren't so shy because I know you're out there reading this blog! And maybe, just probably God will change your heart too by sharing with me and whoever else reads what it is you're thankful for.