Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Round Up & tooth trauma

Here's a round up of my day, in case you're interested.

6:00 AM, woke up, put on my flip flops and drove Brian to the airport

6:45 AM, returned from home and tried to get some more sleep...that didn't happen

7:25 AM, back out of bed again, dressed and made myself presentable

8:00 AM, talked to the "Handy Man" about our latch on the pool equipment fence (it was sticking or not closing altogether)

8:10 AM, drove Kayla to school, it's raining and she was wearing a long skirt

8:20 AM, back home again

8:45 AM, Handy Man is finished with job, we check it and I pay (choke) the bill

9:00 AM, ate breakfast of 2 pieces of french toast

9:30 - 10:30 AM, a bit of a blur of this hour but I think it had to do with laundry and phone calls

10:45 AM, drove to a doctors office in Denton to see about getting my tattoo removed (this is a story that if you know me well you know this story, otherwise it's a boring story and you probably don't wanna know anyway)

11:15 AM, ran into the doctors office drenched because it was pouring rain

11:45 AM, saw the doctor, she seems competent and nice and a pretty good price for the procedure

12:00 PM, ran back to my car after my appt. in even more pouring rain and even more drenched than the time before!

12:30 PM, dropped off a Netflix movie in the P.O. slot and got even more drenched again!

1:00 PM, quick lunch with Colin, check e-mails, make more phone calls

1:45 PM, drove to Lexus to have them fix a few things on my car (they have a carport, yahoo!)

2:45 PM, back home again

2:45 - 3:45 PM, a little bit of house cleaning, called a friend and then left to get Kayla at school

4:15 - 4:25 PM, waiting to get in line in front of the school to pick up Kayla - boy is it ever a mad house!

6:45 - 11:30, as I was typing this around 6:45 Colin was outside riding his bike, he'd only been outside for about 10 minutes when I saw one of the neighbor boys running across our front lawn yelling, "I'll tell his mom!". Right away my stomach sank, I knew that wasn't a good sign. So I ran outside to see what was the matter and Colin was lying face down on the street with blood coming out of his mouth and he was crying. A mothers worst nightmare come to find out he had busted out his front tooth riding on his bike. He slipped in water and came crashing down, on his face. Horrible, horrible, horrible. I still can't get the images out of my mind. As neighbor A came outside I asked her to look for the tooth. Then we rushed inside our house and put a cold pack on his mouth and tried to stop the bleeding. I paged the dentist and tried to calm Colin at the same time. Neighbor A found the tooth and brought it to me and told me to put it in milk. Then neighbor B came by to see if she could help, I told her yes, right before she came I called 911 because after the 2nd try of paging my dentist they never called me back. So in came the paramedics with their gurney and equipment. I believe it was 7 of them, all there to help. Then a friend of mine came over, she was already on her way. We were told by the paramedics that the best place to go was Children's Medical Center in Dallas because they would have everything we needed there; it's hard not to think about money but I was the whole time since we have a very high deductible and no other benefits. Neighbor B was kind enough to drive Colin and me to Children's while my friend stayed at my house to take care of things there and to pick up Kayla from work later that evening. We only spent a few hours at the ER, apparently an injury like that gets high priority with the doctors so you get seen right away. We got home around 11:30 pm, Colin fell asleep right away but I wasn't able to sleep until 2 or 2:30 in the morning. I would rather face a broken bone, the flu or anything else accept this. This was by far the most traumatic thing both he and I have ever been through, and hopefully (prayerfully) the last. Now it's 2 days later and I still feel a little bit in shock. Colin is back to his old self except he feels self conscious and doesn't want many people to see him. I will keep an update on the procedures and all that happens. As I was going through that trauma I was thinking about how God was there at every step of the way. I trust Him and His plan, there will be good to come from this I just don't know yet. But I had so much support, with my neighbors, my friends, family and the paramedics. I felt surrounded by love, care and support. Brian felt absolutely helpless being in Phoenix during this time, he badly wanted to be here and offered to come home. It has been rough and I have questioned God and why He allowed this to happen. I am feeling a bit discouraged and down but I know this too will pass. I think about the soldiers in the war and how much trauma they have to face. Well for whatever reason this did happen and I trust in the good Lord for everything.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Summer Time!

We are now moving into summer break time. Yesterday was Colin's last day of school so today starts the beginning of summer. So many endless possibilities of things to do. My goal for this summer is to get out and to volunteer! I want to go downtown and help feed the homeless, I want to go to the animal shelter and help take care of the animals, I want to go to the different local charity places and help sort out the food and things they get in. Mostly out of all of this I want to show my son the different side of life. To show him how we were created to serve and to give and to worship. I want him to experience those things, to have that good feeling you get from helping others. I pray that God will open his eyes to His world, to loving others and giving back. I will take along my daughter as well when she is not busy with work or summer school. (She has shown great responsibility lately with her new job, and she loves it!) Our church has an activity each summer called "Transform". They find a school in the community that needs major work, they open this to everyone in the church who wants to help and they "transform" the building and peoples lives through the Gospel. I am very excited about this and I can't wait to see how God allows it to all unfold.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Work - no more

Well that was very short lived. In the middle of my shift yesterday I walked out, I couldn't take it anymore. You can only imagine the whys behind it. At the beginning of the week I said I would work there for as long as I'd like. By day two and three I gave myself six months. By day four I thought a month. By day five I was looking at giving it two more weeks. My last day I was just trying to get through the day. All this time I'm heavily leaning on the Lord for peace, patience, guidance. I was experiencing a lot of anxiety and there are a few reasons for that but I won't go into detail. But what I garnered by the end of this experience is that the reason (if I'm hearing the Lord right) I was there for that short period of time was for compassion and understanding...for my husband. Although the details of my work were different compared to his I have a lot more insight into what he must face every day and how it must feel. I think now I can support him in his work, to show him compassion, to praise him for all he does. I am so thankful to God for showing me that. A part of me feels stubborn for having to learn it the hard way but how good is our God to help us to help each other? I am so thankful to God for showing me and for all that Brian does for us week in and week out. I am so taken care of and thankful!

I don't think my ex-boss will be surprised. The job description was quite different from what I actually was expected to do. Many things were heaped on me that was completely out of my comfort zone and out of my ability to do. It's kinda funny because it's almost like I switched lives with someone else for a week. Like those reality shows that do that and help those people understand what the other person has to live with. I wonder if I should add a stone to my pile??? What do you think?

Tuesday, May 13, 2008


I have started a new job. I am working for our mortgage broker who is now changing his business to logistics (transportation brokerage). Right now my brain is literally fried, being on the computer for part of the day, making phone calls to complete strangers, having to remember key words to say. I believe that my brain feels like mush. I know God has called me to that work place for a purpose, other than just making money and making my boss money. He doesn't know the Lord and somehow, little ol' me is going to shine a light in his dark world. Only it won't be my light, it will be God's. Because in my flesh I want to be proud, I don't want to be meek and mild. This is a whole new world for me. The last time I worked in an office I was a "Christian" but living as the world did. Now I am different, Jesus has changed me and I think that this is a test. But will I make it past the difficulties of work like calling strangers and sort of selling our company on the phone? That I really despise but if the Lord has called me there I must be obedient. Anyway, pray for me to speak the words the Lord has called me to speak, or just be the person He has called me to be. No more, no less...anything else would be living a lie. Talk about a walk of faith. He will never leave me nor forsake me.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

we need each other

I went on a field trip today and spent most of my time with my son and his friends and another mom whom I'd met before but have never had the time to sit and talk with her. We talked a lot about our daughters (she has a 12 year old) that are going through teen angst and before the day was over she said she knew God was in our conversation because of some of the things I said. Quite frankly I was nervous about sharing so much with her because I didn't know her that well but it ended up being a blessing to get to know her more and to be able to talk with someone else with similar struggles in life. I love how God works things out like that, I love talking with people and making connections...real connections not fake "surface" like talk. That kind of talk tends to make me feel depressed and out there, alone. But sharing with someone else how God is working in my life, seeing God in everything and just opening up to another human being is what I love. It gives me the warm fuzzies and for that I am so thankful to God for. He is such a good God & when we do things His way (like opening up when it looks scary), everything falls into place.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

I love this little girl!!!

I wanted to post something more on the lighter side today. If you haven't already seen this you've gotta watch it. I want this for my ring tone, she makes me laugh every time I see it!



Thursday, May 1, 2008

No more confusion

I had an amazing time with the Lord a couple of days ago. I've been searching, praying and hoping that God would show me something I felt was pressing and important. These have been my questions to the Lord, "Is what is going on around me not OK or am I too sensitive, show me your thoughts Lord...?" He pointed me to Psalm 103. While reading I underlined all of the words that God is and what dh is not. This isn't a case of comparing him to God or to bash him or make him look bad, God was simply showing me how a godly husband should treat his wife. The first thing I read was verse 6 and in it David says, "The Lord does what is right and fair for all who are wronged by others." Then here are the words I underlined: mercy, kind, does not become angry quickly, great love, not accuse, not angry forever, not punished us, not repaid us, great is his love, mercy, a father has mercy on his children, Lord's love, respect and his goodness continues to their grandchildren. God was telling me through these verses that He's got me covered, He knows everything, He sees the wrong being done, He is right and fair and He went so far as to show me that my grandchildren will know of His goodness! He flooded me with truth all that day and He is with me today. Oh I pray that the scales will fall off dh eyes, that he will be repentant and humble. A good friend of mine said that even though I'm in the midst of a "tornado" to keep my eyes on Him, to rest in Him and nothing will harm me or my children or my dh. It is all for our good, even when it hurts.

Thanks for your prayers.