Saturday, May 30, 2009

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Friday, May 1, 2009


I found a guy that wrote a book about how to speak with people regarding abortion. Here's one of his clips.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

God's Grace and His gift I was blessed with

I sent this e-mail to my sweet sister in Christ Becca after she forwarded me a story on abortion and I wanted to share. (The link to the news story is at the bottom of the page.)


This past week God has done a major work in my heart regarding abortion. For years I was angry and hateful in my heart towards women that have had an abortion. I even said to a very close friend of mine last year (knowing she had had 2 abortions) that, "I would kill myself if I had an abortion." I had no compassion for them, yet I see women all of the time in our ministry that have had an abortion. Just two months ago at our leadership meeting I asked what to say to women like that because I said, "I've never had an abortion." My heart was hardened and this past week God did some pruning! I confessed in my heart of the anger and bitterness, I learned more about abortion and learned that abortion is not only a great act of violence on the unborn but ALSO on the woman herself. A lot of times they LIE to them and tell them it won't hurt, that the fetus is a "blob" and they will walk away with no ill effects...all lies! So I've done a complete 180 in regards to this, on Saturday at my women's group I opened up about my week and I completely broke down in tears because my friend (that I had said those insensitive words to) was there! I was planning on apologizing to her this next week but God arranged it to where I could say I was sorry to her on Saturday instead (in front of all of my friends). It was incredibly healing (and even more humbling)! Another thing is there was an abortion retreat this weekend for our church, for women to get healing on abortion (I did not know that until Saturday)! I'm not sure if I've shared this with you but I have the gift of intercessory prayer, often I will wake up in the middle of the night and pray for someone that God has brought to my attention, I pray in the car, I pray in the shower, often when I'm alone I'm praying for others that God burdens me to pray for. Anyway so, long story long, when you sent me this link I almost fell over! I've been praying for this abortion issue all week and all weekend long. Not really knowing how to pray; how do I pray for the 4,000+ women that will have an abortion every day, how do I pray for our politicians and president to see the absolute heinousness (and ridiculousness) of this, so I prayed in tongues even when God prompted me cause my heart is willing but my spirit and my mind don't know how! It's been a very heavy week to say the least. So upon getting this email it's just confirmation to me that I'm being obedient to God's call, and just more information on how to pray, who to pray for (I can pray for this man, Irving "Bud" Feldcamp).

Thanks friend! God is sooooo good!

Love ya!


PS When I came to your house on your b-day it was another reminder of the abortion issue, upon seeing your children and what a blessing they are and how the world makes children seem like a burden and how they take better care of dogs and cats with unborn than they do women!!! It makes NO sense to me. :-(

----- Original Message -----

ABORTION MILL OWNER'S FAMILY TRAGEDY - The tragic plane crash into a Montana grave yard that killed three entire families this past week, has received widespread attention and sympathy. What is not mentioned is that the plane was leased by one of California's largest operators of abortion clinics. The owner of the abortion company often let his family use the plane for pleasure trips, and when it crashed last week he lost two daughters and five grandchildren. The plane crashed into a Catholic cemetery, very near a monument to the victims of abortion.

Monday, March 2, 2009

5 things

1. I have a tummy ache just now, these pantothenic acid (dissolve fast) vitamins do that to me about once a week, thanks tummy...trying to be healthy here!

2. It's been a rough day, very stressful and I need way more of Him and way less of me.

3. I am closer to picking out curtains for my living room, did you know interior decorators charge the same amount for curtains as it does to pay a down payment on your first house (about $5,000)? No thanks.

4. I got to spend my anniversary with my hubby, we went to CPK (no not KFC that's CPK) and watched half of "Confessions of a Shopaholic". I will explain some day...

5. Every where I go in this house...there are my cats; they really do love me and who says cats don't love unconditionally like dogs do? Mine sure do.

6. Wait I have one more thing: I found out today that I get to have a mammogram now, oh joy.

Here's a photo cause I know peeps like photos and I'm gonna try and be better at this. It was a painting I did one day, I was just messing around. I like the tree how it's needing the light from the sun. I know it's a different painting but...what are your thoughts?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Sometimes they fall down

I just changed my font cause I was growing weary of the spots and dots or whatever you call them, hee hee! I needed a change and I thought my one reader (yes I said reader, as in one, ha!) would like a change too. ;-) That's not the only changes I've made lately...

A couple of weeks ago at Recovery at the Village when it was my turn to talk I blurted out, "I think I have a problem, I'm addicted to the computer." God has a funny way of getting things out of us, or having us confess. I didn't even intend to say that when I went that night. I lead one of the small groups so at the time (of my denial) I felt I had to be "on top of things" in my life. So when it came out of my mouth I knew I could not turn back then, I had to face my issue head on and deal with it. You see I've not only been addicted to the computer but mainly I've been addicted to Facebook. You may snicker because you yourself get on and play around and chat, etc but I really felt convicted when it was on my mind 24/7. What do they call that? Oh idol. Because God was not filling my thoughts 24/7 I was filling my head with facebook, facebook, facebook. Now I love to keep up with new friends, old friends, family and the like but I was out of control! It literally felt like an addiction to a drug, very weird cause I didn't feel good until I got on and then once I got on it wasn't satisfying me. I'm not sure where the turning point was for me but whatever the case it happened and I was in deep denial. So I took an entire day last week to fast from the computer, no e-mail, no facebook, no nothing. After that first day I felt like God was calling me to fast from facebook for the entire week. I wasn't happy about that (oh no!) but I knew that I had to run directly away from it and run to Christ. He is my only hope, my only source of strength, the peace I so badly need and the joy in my life.

Day 2 was not easy cause I felt like a 2 year old screaming for her missing blanky! I was grumpy, whiny and complaining (sound familiar?) God brought me to Obadiah and have you ever actually read Obadiah? It's very short, only one chapter but in there God speaks of punishing, commands that were broken, and nations to be judged. I only read it once, yeah when you're feeling separated from God it will only take one reading! But after day 2 and 3 I started to see the light, I also started to see myself doing things that normal housewives should be doing like cleaning house, cooking, etc. I was deeply ashamed! And to top all of this off my "fasting" from facebook for the week landed at the very same time my son got the flu so I was stuck at home, couldn't go anywhere with a sick child to tend to and who slept often so I had lots of free time. It was torture I tell you, torture! Sorry I got off on a bunny trail...anyway so after day 3 or 4 and I started to feel freedom God brought me to Matthew 11:28, "Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light." That was like a major breath of fresh air, hope and rest. So since then I've been resting in Him, taking all of my burdens to him, checking my idolatry at his feet and not looking back. He is so good to forgive, His mercy is never ending and for this hard headed woman I need it! Thanks for listening...

Saturday, January 24, 2009

A New Year, A New President - what will God do next

Since the inauguration I have been numb to politics. It is an amazing thing that we now have a black president (can I say that?). I am in awe over that whole issue and how far this country has come. But I am very opposed to what he stands for and already he has made changes that have caused me to cry:

I am avoiding the news because I feared exactly what he has already done and will continue to do. I am simply praying for mercy for him and our country, for our children and generations to come. It all just breaks my heart and yet I see on facebook and other blogs how so many people are "thankful" and "happy" about our new president. I wanted to share an article by John Piper regarding this same issue. What he wrote is exactly my sentiments. Here you go, it's not a long read and if the link does not work the article is at entitled, "The President, the Passengers and the Patience of God":

(you will need to copy and paste the links)

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Once again a no brainer...sort of:

FOR TODAY January 8, 2009...

Outside my window...The racket of the roofers next door is echoing through the neighborhood. Although our insurance and roofer guy said we don't need a roof, hmmmmmmm....

I am might be the reason why my back wakes up sore every single day despite the brand new mattress in our bed. I hate to give it up because it feels so good to stretch and bend but my journey with yoga may soon come to an end. More on this later...

I am thankful daughter, she woke up looking much better than when she went to bed last night.

From the a sparkling clean sink yet no thoughts on what is for dinner, I have thoughts but I can't seem to find the thing I'm looking for at any of the stores nearby. Now I don't know what I will do because I used to count on those organic (healthy) boxed meals to get me through the week.

I am wearing...a robe and pj's.

I am creating...a painting, still working on the same one I started last summer...some day soon though!

I am try a step class today, hopefully I won't get killed falling off of the step because I haven't been in so long. On second thought, maybe I'll just hit the treadmill or go for a walk on this beautiful sunny day.

I am reading...I'm in the middle of books, actually a confession...I'm reading "The Confessions of a Shopaholic". That's funny, a confession about a confession! I like those kinds of novels because it's the heavy ones that I need a break from every now and then. I'm also still reading the book on fear, almost done and I do feel like God has grown me in that area, rather He has given me freedom from it. (He is so good!)

I am hoping...that going to my high school reunion next year won't be a big waste of time.

I am hearing...the clock tick, a dog bark and hammers on tiles nearby.

Around the Christmas decorations are still looking back at me and I really need to finish up putting them up.

One of my favorite things...a quiet house on mornings like this, no immediate agenda's, no last minute errands, just me, God and this big and quiet house...aaaaahh.

A few plans for the rest of the week: To find a hormonal specialist and make an appointment, to take Colin to his ortho appt., to continue to help Brian with his last run in with poison ivy and I've got to call my sister, I am so bad about that now and for no good reason. To go to a very good friend of mines birthday party on Saturday, Happy Birthday Jennifer!!!