Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Simply Today

I love these kinds of blogs so I'm participating today because I love prompts:

Outside my window...birds are chirping (at least 3 different kinds).

I am thinking...I need to get off of the internet.

I am thankful for...my friends and silk long underwear that keeps me warm in the winter.

I am wearing...my pjs and a jacket.

I am creating...a couple of paintings, I need help with a color for one that is almost finished. I think the color is peach (from the original) but my art teacher insists it's tan.

I am going...to take Colin to CC's Pizza today, he gets out of school early.

I am reading...Running Scared by Edward T. Welch.

I am hoping...for my hubby to make a decision about gifts for the Adair family soon.

I am hearing...silence (the birds have already quieted down).

Around the house...dust bunnies are gathering.

One of my favorite things...an unexpected hug from my 11 year old and humility from my 16 year old and all of the laughs provided by my husband.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Yoga, helping to feed the homeless on Thursday, hang out with my kids cause they're out of school and mailing another package.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Leave me a note and tell me about one thing you are thankful for or one of your favorite things.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Gmail confusion

OK, got a new e-mail account and for some reason I can't register the new e-mail with this blog account. It's from the same source, google. What's up google? Does anyone know why or have answers to this puzzling question? I don't want to get a separate e-mail account simply for this blog but then again I don't want to lose this blog. I know there are far more difficult things in life but this one is bothering me at the moment. :-/

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Fear...less

I have finally opened my eyes to what has been keeping me paralyzed for the past three weeks, FEAR. I am a big chicken, nothing more, nothing less. Well actually yes there is more, I am not trusting in my great God and King with my fears. I am reading a book right now called "Running Scared" by Edward T. Welch. In the second chapter he asks you what your fears are and I started thinking about them (yes there are many) and I was able to see that I have been denying this emotion (or whatever you call it) all along. So I have many fears; mainly fear of the economy, fear of the new president elect and what he will do, fear of confronting other people, etc. Then just a little bit ago I was intercepting a billion calls from insurance agents...so my fear kicked in again. I started to crave sweets because I was denying my fear, so I asked God to help me with these thoughts barraging me. I knew sweets wasn't the answer.

A week ago before realizing I was dealing with fear I got a letter in the mail from John Piper, not a personal letter but the kind of letter where they talk about a certain topic, then they ask for a donation (or not) to be able to receive that CD in the mail. Well the topic was fear, so I went straight ahead to www.desiringgod.com and listened to John's teaching on fear. I wrote down some of the main points and for the past few days I've been trying to memorize Isaiah 41:10 which says, "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." I like the part where John says, I am your God - over you. I am with you - by your side. I will strengthen you - from inside you. I will help you - all around you from wherever the enemy comes. I will uphold you - from underneath you.

I am so thankful for friends, a good friend of mine has been praying for me for the past three weeks. She knows my patterns and she felt God prompting her to pray for me. We talked about this today. I can't do this walk alone, no one can. I'm still learning, still growing, still learning to trust in God in all things.