Saturday, May 17, 2008

Work - no more

Well that was very short lived. In the middle of my shift yesterday I walked out, I couldn't take it anymore. You can only imagine the whys behind it. At the beginning of the week I said I would work there for as long as I'd like. By day two and three I gave myself six months. By day four I thought a month. By day five I was looking at giving it two more weeks. My last day I was just trying to get through the day. All this time I'm heavily leaning on the Lord for peace, patience, guidance. I was experiencing a lot of anxiety and there are a few reasons for that but I won't go into detail. But what I garnered by the end of this experience is that the reason (if I'm hearing the Lord right) I was there for that short period of time was for compassion and understanding...for my husband. Although the details of my work were different compared to his I have a lot more insight into what he must face every day and how it must feel. I think now I can support him in his work, to show him compassion, to praise him for all he does. I am so thankful to God for showing me that. A part of me feels stubborn for having to learn it the hard way but how good is our God to help us to help each other? I am so thankful to God for showing me and for all that Brian does for us week in and week out. I am so taken care of and thankful!

I don't think my ex-boss will be surprised. The job description was quite different from what I actually was expected to do. Many things were heaped on me that was completely out of my comfort zone and out of my ability to do. It's kinda funny because it's almost like I switched lives with someone else for a week. Like those reality shows that do that and help those people understand what the other person has to live with. I wonder if I should add a stone to my pile??? What do you think?


David Baumgartner said...

Sounds like you voted yourself off the island?? =0)

Rachel said...